Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Testing Day

At 3 am this morning I woke up with an urgent need to pee. I remembered the preganancy test and took it in the bathroom with me. I peed on the stick. After all was finished and I left the bathroom, I examined the test. I frowned. I woke up hubby and asked him what he saw. He looked. He frowned, too, and groped for his glasses. Once he had them on he scrutinized the test carefully. After awhile....

Hubby: So...what does this mean?

me: I'm not sure.

Hubby: is it negative?

me: I don't know...exactly.

Hubby: Is it positive?

me: not sure about that either.

We looked at the test some more. Then Hubby said he'd take me to the doctor when he got home from work. We turned off the light and went back to sleep.

A couple of hours later, while here at this same computer, I felt a familiar ache. I went to the bathroom to check it out and, sure enough, that wretched period had decided to show up after it felt it had caused me and hubby enough grief. So that's that. I can order my products.

I was reading up on said products and liver congestion this morning. Apparently the more the liver deteriorates the less able it is to process chemicals and drugs. Which might explain why progesterone treatment isn't working like it used to. I tell you, I can't clean myself out quick enough! I've also decided to order some for hubby because from what I've read, he's suffering from liver and gall bladder congestion as well. Also, it looks like this baby thing will have to wait awhile. I'll be cleansing for at least 3 months.

More later, inshallah.

Last Menstrual Period: Feb 28, 2007

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

1 More Day

Hmmmmm. Looks like I'll actually have to take that test tomorrow. I feel like it's going to be negative, even though I had a rough bout of nausea yesterday. In fact, I am so positive that it's going to be negative that even if it turns out to be positive, I'll probably see it as negative. I just refuse to believe that after all this time I'm suddenly pregnant right when I want to do a serious cleanse.

Should I make a doctor's appointment from now for that followup blood test? I mean the period just ain't here and looks like it's not coming anytime soon. I guess I should try and make an appointment for tomorrow...

And you know what? Since I'm sure the pregnancy test is going to be negative, I'm positive the blood test will be negative, too, thus wasting my hard-earned money. And when alllllll that drama is over and done with, then my period will show up as innocently as you please, just as if I haven't been living in outrage the past week over its absence.

Where will it all end???

Last Menstrual Period: Jan 24, 2007

Monday, February 26, 2007

2 Days to go

Nothing yet, no period....


Last Menstrual Period: Jan 24, 2007

Sunday, February 25, 2007

No Period Yet

Hubby has frankly said he hopes he cooked that egg. He wishes there was a definitive answer one way or the other, his words exactly. My breasts aren't tender anymore. And the sleepiness seems to be subsiding; I only had one 3 hour nap yesterday. Maybe these things mean that my period is finally on its way.

One can hope.

Last Menstrual period: Jan 24, 2007

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Still Waiting...

I have decided that if the test is negative on Wednesday and I still haven't gotten my period...I'm going to order that stuff and do my cleanse, by God. If a baby can't have the decency to make its presence known via a pregnancy test, then it deserves whatever happens to it. Although, I suppose it wouldn't kill me to follow up with a blood test.

Damnit, why can't my period just COME???


Ok. I have to remain positive. We want to enlarge our family, right? Right. I can tell hubby is keenly interested in what's going on. Every morning he asks me with obvious tension in his voice if I'm bleeding. When I tell him no, he walks off with a gleam in his eye. He thinks he cooked that egg. Ok, so in the interest of remaining positive, I have to look at this as a win-win situation. If I'm preggy, good. If I'm not, good. I can do the cleanse.

I just have to wait till Wednesday.

Last Menstrual Period: Jan 24, 2007

Friday, February 23, 2007

Waiting...

Still late...



Last Menstrual Period: Jan 24, 2007

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Officially Late

Ok, wtf? WHERE THE HELL IS MY PERIOD????!!!!!!

Unbelievable. My period is never late. It comes like clockwork while I'm on progesterone treatment, which I've been on for the past four months. It comes like clockwork when I'm on birth control which I was on for the past 2 years. So what is with this obscene lateness??? The one time I have an agenda, the one time when a late period wouldn't be cause for all night partying, the one time I want the blessed thing to come, it's not here.

I don't want this to be another blog obsessing over periods and/or the absence of same. I just wanted to document my cycles and any possible pregnancy. But now it looks like I'll have to mention those two dreadful words: Pregnancy Test.

As it happens, I am in possession of a pregnancy test. It's left over from December. That test was positive, but I miscarried the following week. Hubby bought two, so now the other one is right there in the room. Sigh. I just want my period to come so I can order my products. Granted, I should have thought of that before doing the baby dance on certain days, but I only recently became aware of the importance of a clean liver and its impact on my life. Like, in the past couple of weeks.

If I don't see my period by next Wednesday, I'll have to take the test.

Yes, I've been incredibly sleepy. Yes, I have breast tenderness. And though it shames me to admit it, I've had slight nausea. However, I am firmly attributing those things to the Provera...which I stopped taking almost a week ago. Hubby just says to wait, it'll come, you've been late before. All I could think was, yeah...right before a miscarriage.

Last Menstrual Period: Jan 24, 2007

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Not Late!

Ahhhh, much better! I had a nice 2 hour nap and feel momentarily refreshed. I know fatigue will kick in again in a couple of hours, but there is much I can accomplish until then.

For starters, I recounted the days. I'm not late! My period was due yesterday, today is the 29th day of my cycle. I feel much better about that. Hubby commented on me being so sleepy for the past week and wondered if a certain little egg hadn't gotten cooked. I told him I want to have a baby but I want to do the cleanse first. He was like 'oh, ok'. Anyways, I'll be glad when my period comes, because it looks like I'll be able to order the cleanse products in a few days. If I'm pregnant, though, the cleanse will have to wait till after the baby is born. Releasing toxins into your body has a negative effect on an unborn baby.

More later, inshallah.

Last Menstrual Period: Jan 24, 2007

Still Waiting...

My period still hasn't shown up. I'm so sleepy and it's only 7:21 am. I've been up since 5 am. Seems like I always get very sleepy during the days before my period comes. Yesterday, I was napping on and off all day and I went to bed early.

I've been fighting exhaustion and I'm losing. I have to go back to sleep. I can't take it anymore. I have homework to do today, but it isn't actually due today so I'm going to take a nap. I'll do it when I get up, inshallah.

LastMenstrual Period: Jan 24, 2007

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Estrogen-Rich Foods

I found this on a website discussing estrogen supplements for menopausal women.

Foods rich in phytoestrogens, a natural estrogen:
Soy.
Millet.
Barley.
Flax seed.
Lentils.
Kidney beans.
Lima beans.
Rye.
Clover.
Fennel.
Chickpeas (garbanzo beans).

Other foods containing the estrogen compound phytoestrogen include;
Apples.
Alfalfa sprouts.
Celery.
Parsley.
Beets.
Bok choy.
Broccoli.
Cauliflower.
Carrots.
Cucumbers.
Mushrooms.
Brussel sprouts.
Seaweeds.
Squash.
Pumpkin seeds.
Sunflower seeds.
Cherries.
Olives.
Pears.
Plums.
Tomatoes.
Prunes.
Barley.
Oats.
Brown rice.
Wheat germ.
Bulgur.
Brewer’s Yeast.
Black-eye peas.
Mung bean sprouts.
Navy beans.
Red beans.
Split peas.
Spices; cloves, ginger, hops, oregano, red raspberry, sage tea, thyme, turmeric.

Now, I'm not menopausal, but since I'm already dealing with estrogen dominance, it would behoove me to stay away from those foods. From that list I regularly consume cloves, ginger,sage tea, red beans, split peas, tomatoes, cucumbers, carrots, parsley and celery. From now on, I'll be more careful with what I eat. At least until after I've done the cleanses.

Last Menstrual Period: Jan 24, 2007

Period

Well, I just counted up the days and it seems I should have gotten my period on the 17th of this month. No biggie. My cycle is usualy 28-29 days long but I was still taking the Provera. Guess I lost track of the days. Anyways, the day before yesterday was my last day taking it, so my period should be along shortly. As a matter of fact, I'm feeling some very mild (barely a twinge) cramping as I type this, so I expect it to come tomorrow or soon after that.

That's it for now, more later inshallah.


Last Menstrual Period: Jan 24, 2007

Monday, February 19, 2007

Mission Statement

So. I guess I can best sum up the purpose of this blog as follows:

Hubby and I want to enlarge our family. Currently we have 1 daughter, age nine. We plan on having a few more and this blog will document our road to that.


There are a few things to consider. Number 1: I've had about seven miscarriages in the 10 years hubby and I have been married. Number 2: I have a hormone imbalance. Number 3: I have been diagnosed with PCOS. Number 4: My last miscarriage was this past December.

Following that miscarriage, my doctor had me take some injections to stimulate egg growth which worked beautifully. Then she gave me an injection to release the eggs. However, nothing happened when we went for the check-up. No fertilization or anything. Hubby has agreed to get his sperm count checked to make sure his swimmers are swimming. He hasn't yet, but I'll remind him.


Meanwhile, I have found out that having a congested liver can seriously contribute to infertility so I plan to do a colon cleanse and liver cleanse. Once my liver is cleaned out, my hormone imbalance should correct itself. People with a congested liver often suffer from estrogen dominance, which is exacly the case with me. I put a link to the site that talks about it in my links section. The site also sells something that sounds like it would work in my case called Chinese Bitters and Coptis. As for the PCOS, I found something interesting called Vitex. It looks promising. I'm going to check it out, inshallah. Some of the products sold on sensible health have vitex in them. So far I've been dosing myself with progesterone, 10mg a day. It keeps my period regular but I want more than that and I don't want to rely on drugs. I want to start using natural products.

That's it for now. More later, inshallah.

Last Menstrual Period: Jan 24, 2007